Hello folks! I know I have completely lost any of my readers that I did have due to my lack of consistency, but I’m back, and I feel like I am on fire. See, I have this passion, but clearly, I’ve allowed fear to hold me back from following through with what I truly love. This can’t happen any longer. It’s going to be a rocky road, I’m sure, but if I don’t make the effort, I’ll never feel completely fulfilled. And guess what… if you are reading this, you are here at step 1 with me. Thank you for joining 🙂

I want to cover things here like diet, hormones, habit, goals, ambitions, time-management, workout regimen, balance… overall health. I haven’t had a clue where to start, so in the past I have touched on subjects such a current events a politics, simply to keep me writing about something. That was until I realized just how off-topic I was getting. I needed to start fresh, and in order to do that, I needed to start fresh in my own journey. I took this step by asking myself what my true purpose was. My idea is to start from there. So, here we go…

How do we find our purpose? Purpose is most definitely driven by PASSION. What sets your soul on fire? I think people use that phrase so often, we don’t quite understand what that “soul-on-fire” feeling might actually, physically feel like. In my experience, I have found that I am the most happy, satisfied, content, and PROUD of my work when I help someone achieve their health or fitness goals. I mean, if someone says, “you inspire me”, or “you changed my life”, like, WHOOOOOOAAAAAA!!! That’s an incredible feeling. It’s those goosebumps you get and the tears of happiness. When you are completely enveloped in a state of JOY, and you have the urge to be in that state again and again… if you can’t stop talking about, learning about it, or finding out how you can participate in it, you have found your purpose. I don’t think this feeling of achievement or purpose can be found very often. But man, when you feel that, heed that feeling.

My problem is, I haven’t heard that in a few years. Why, you ask? Because in the last few years, I gave up personal training to work in an industry to make money instead of inspire and help others. See, if you read my last post, you would know I went through a period of financial struggle. Although I was doing what I loved while training others, I was not able to make enough money to keep a decent roof over my and my son’s head. I was scared that I was devoting too much time to helping people, working around their budget because although they needed a trainer, they could not afford it. I spent my time and money driving to people’s homes to train them so they didn’t have to join a gym where they didn’t feel comfortable, and I would walk away only earning pennies on the dollar. Don’t get me wrong, I felt amazing knowing I could help someone in need, but in doing so, I forgot that I needed to help myself first. I was doing it all wrong. Instead of figuring out how to make it work, I decided to make a leap to work in an industry where money came easy if you were good at selling – and I’ve been in sales since the age of 15. What I really needed to do was learn how to sell MY service, MY product, and MY value. I bet if I had stuck with it, and found a proper mentor or guidance, I would have already made a killing.

Money can make you do silly things. It can make stay in a job that you hate. It can make you completely give up what you love. It can tear you away from family and friends. It can take your time. It can make you forget that you were put on this earth for a reason other than to help yourself. You trick yourself into thinking that how much money you make establishes how much you are worth in the eyes of the world. You can make a million dollars and easily still be miserable. But is that worth it? At the risk of people from my company reading this, I’m going to share my journey of going back to doing what I love. Over the next few years, I am going to practice things like time-management, prioritizing, training, and studying until I feel confident enough to fully transition back into doing what I am passionate about. The ultimate goal is to do what I love, AND to make money doing it. I am aware this requires SACRIFICE, and that’s the word I have been so fearful of over the past few years. What will I have to give up? Well, there’s time with friends, lifestyle, countless Netflix episodes, weekends… the list goes on. I think I’m finally willing to take the steps to take on this journey. I will continue to work diligently at my current job, but my free time will be devoted to moving forward in this process and making every minute count toward my purpose.

Me writing about this holds me accountable. If you read this, and you see me slipping, call my ass out. Sometimes, I need reminders of where I want to be. I get distracted easily, and I KNOW most people can relate. I have written down my long-term goals for 2018, and what I want my end-game to be. I’m going to create a dream board, and once it’s finished I’m going to hang that sucker up where I can see it every day until I have everything that is on that board. I’m going to speak the thoughts, vibes, and positivity into the universe, and have the utmost faith that it will give me exactly what I ask for.

I want this to be a forum of discussion. I realize when you open up your blog, or social media to that, you also open it up to negativity and backlash. I’m totally prepared and welcome constructive criticisms. We live in a world where I want to see COMMUNITY. My ultimate goal is to help empower others. I want to help inspire. If I’m not doing that, say so! We’re all in this together and I look forward to hearing your feedback.

****If you are reading this and would like to see further content, please follow me on Instagram @fitfreakdiaries.

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